Today was a really good day.  i had my spanish final which was easy just kind of annoying for some reason and my chem final which was definately easier than expected!  im kinda scared about tomorrow though.  i have english and history!  anyway i got to come home and hang with my family.  that doesnt usually happen.  we are all home at different times.  yeah so my dad got a job with Bunzl distribution co.  my dad is really exited...he should be.  he even got a little bit of a raise!  he really likes the guy he will be working with...so thats good too.  also, im gonna be able to hang with ash this weekend...so thats a plus.  and of course the no homework thing is still a shocker.

this semester i9 went thru a whole spiral in each class and about 3 folders per class.  i think i should invest in those attitude folders!  there is an informational meeting for badminton thursday all ready. i dont know what im gonna do!  today i kinda ate crappy too.  i had wendys for lunch with lu, then had baja fresh for dinner with my family.  in case you've never heard of it...its a really good mexican joint on algonquin road.  but still i gotta say...nowhere is better than garcias downtown!(ash)\

anyway its 11:15 and i should probably got to bed so i can do good on tomorrow's finals.  Goodnight!

Hey all.  I have to sit down and study this weekend for finals...but I dont think it will be so bad.  Anyway...I read Marina's xanga. I know parents are too pushy and can make you feel like crap about school...so thats not good.  But I kinda wish my parents were more strict about that though because I practically had to beg my mom to go and my dad wont take off work..well he would but he's in a pretty tight spot right now.  But I wish they cared a litlle more.  ever since 5th grade they havent gone to anything school related.  They dont know who my teachers are, much lessc ould give a damn!  Yeah so as long as im rambling...my dad is about to lose his job...the company is going under.  he doesnt make that much money anyway...so hes got a lot of work to do. it bothers me so much because he is the obly one supporting my family!  my mom refuses to work...i dont know why.  she was never like this before.  Not that i want to sound like a selfish bitch but the other day at the eye doctors office there is this optional eye test to test for diabetes cancer, etc.  well my mom debated over whether or not i should get it.  then decided no because money is tight...it would be different if she were working and we still dont have enough money.  But most parents would want that test for their children because money wouldnt be an issue for their children's health.  but shes not working and i dont feel like my health has to be compromised because of it.  how can she let my dad go through all of this stress while she sits around and doesnt do a whole lot?!  she says Rick dont worry!  if you were my dad wouldn't you?  it is so hard to get a job right now.  My dads gonna have to collect unemployment and all of that.  why wont she work?!  there is nothing wrong with her that she CANT, and even still...i would do it if i had to.  she wont even look around for one...shes just gonna let my dad do it like he does everything else!  this is stressing me out and technically its not my problem.  nothing else is really on my mind right now...nothing else is wrong.  My sister and i are gonna go see the movie monster tonight.  its based off of that story about the first woman serial killer in the U.S.  so then saturday and sunday i gotta study, study, study!  then on monday im taking Carissa, Marena, and Anessa roller skating.  i dont know why but im really looking forward to it.  well i know why...but im extra exited.  Anyway ill try to write again this weekend.  sorry i dont update it so often!  but thanks for being patient guys!

Wow...I haven'y written in a while.  I didn't really have access to a comp over break.  Wow, I realize school sucks.  The only good thing right now is that i have a 3 week vacation from StuCu and Crier.  I don't know what I am gonna do when badminton starts.  Anyway Cali was fun.  I stayed with my family.  They live in Beverly Hills.  Then, we went to Vegas.  I love it there even though I can't gamble.  I came home early though because my whole family got really sick and our trip to San Diego got cancelled.  Yeah I have a lot of make-up work to do.  For history my class got to take the test in groups and use notes and guess what?!  I get to take it all by myself without any notes.  Some of my New Year's resolutions were to obviously to lose weight which wont happen, to stop procrastinating which wont happen, and to try new things no matter how scary.  Yeah so the other day I was at a friend of the family's house and we were watching this kinda stupid movie, which is shocking for lifetime i think.  Anyway there was this girl Arlene and she used to be a whore and was in jail, well she got out and changed her life and stuff.  well people kept calling her Arley which was her "old" self and now she wanted to be called Arlene.  but she said it in a hick accent all drawn out like arleeeeeene!  Try saying it!  It really is fun.  I started laughing all by myself because I was saying it.  Yeah ok...I can't wait until I get my license in february.  I can't wait to take my girls Carissa, Marena, and Anessa out rollerskating again!  And I cant wait to get out of the house whenever i feel like it.  After tomorrow the rest of my week shouldt be too bad.  You know what?  I always feel so blah lately!  Thats another resolution...I need to be happy!  Its not that my friends and family dont make me happy but im definately missing something!  I wish life werent so damn confusing.  I hate confusion and drama...and yet i cant escape it!  Well something did happen recently...I dont want to put it on here because I like to keep things thsa should be kept personal, personal!  But what happened proves how mental my family is.  I mean literally mentally something wrong!  My mom's side of the family is messed up and so is my dad's.  Between the two I dont know how i turned out normal!  I wonder if it skips generations?!  anyway i think it is cool how everybody has a different story...their life i mean.  its weird how you can judge someone and not evan know what their life has been like.  I honestly dont believe that even the most richest famous people dont have hardships!  sometimes i think people can be misjudged.  But then again i know some people like a book.  my dad is really prdictable.  I feel like i have so much more to say...but i dont know what.  you know what is sad...i didnt miss anyone on vacation really.  in fact if i didnt have to go back to school i wouldn't.  something changed my mind from freshman year.  sophmore year is a bitch for me.  See heres the prob i have.  i need money to go to college because not every child is born with an inheritance...so that means i have to work.  how do i work when i have Stu Co, badminton, and crier, and grades  but colleges look for people who are involved!  its a vicious circle!  I cant get out of it.  So wanna hear a funny story.  My friend ash works at tj maxx.  well she accidently sold her bosses $300 mink fur coat for $20 because it was on the service desk which is stuff to be put back on the racks.  somebody wanted a price check on it so they found a jacket similar and gave it that price and so the lady bought it.  now she is worried she will get fired.  i dont think she will but if she does it would be better than dealing with all of the bull crap now.  im gonna go to bed now...but im not gonna set my alarm for music though because ill sleep thru it.  I got a new alarm clock radio cd player thing.  i need a buzzer!  Anyway goodnight!  i will try to keep updated more often.  i know you guys care so much about my problems right?!